This week has been one full of tears for me. It has been a rollercoaster weather-wise…and that always sends my son into a tailspin. We are talking meltdowns, non stop screaming, not sleeping…the works. It has been a struggle for me to find the sunshine…the silver lining, and I am Exhausted…emotionally and Physically. That being said, It has also forced me to dig deep and cling to the only hope I have, to rely on my Faith. I am learning to daily look for the joy , to focus on the Blessings. I am not saying that it is easy, cause…it isn’t. What I am saying is that it is a journey, one I am learning I do not have to walk alone….
“He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength.
Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted;
but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength;
they shall mount up with wings like eagles;
they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint. “
♥Isaiah 40:29-31 ♥
Raising a child on the autism spectrum is not easy, but I am learning that it is not a road I walk alone, that I do not need to do this all by myself. For all the people out there who do not “get it” , who make me want to never leave the house, I have found that if I step out and take a chance, there ARE people out there who truly do care…who walk this road with me……
On this road, the most amazing updates are the simple things that to most look small…..
On this road there are more questions than answers….
On this road it is easy to feel alone, to isolate and shut out the outside world….
On this road the Ups and downs come at you so fast, with the downs sending your head spinning and the ups taking your breath away….
On this road, the frustration runs HIGH and the tears fall frequently…
I know this much…
it is worth EVERY tear, EVERY frustration, EVERY heartache,
cling to the Ups, cherish those simple milestones,
and remember that we have the privilege of raising children who NEED us to slow down in this fast paced world,
who NEED us to focus on the simple joys like a word, or a hug, a smile…
the simple milestones most parents miss because they are sooo focused on that next “Big milestone”.