Today has been an emotional one for me, well this whole week has. this afternoon, those emotions all came to a full explosion when my youngest child came home from school and informed me that rather than school shirts , they were to wear red white and blue tomorrow because it is sep. 11. I new they day was coming up fast, and the events of what happened 8 years ago are engrained in my mind. however, it hit me with an overwhelming rush of emotions that 8 years ago, my husband was away for Annual training for the National Guard, and here we are, 8 years later, and he is once again at annual training on September 11th.
there are some good emotions and memories from 8 years ago mixed in there……8 years ago today I found out that I was expecting child number three….and memories of my pregnancy with her are forever tied to the emotions that followed on Sept. 11th. 8 years ago, was when I met one of my dearest friends, Kellie ( miss you Kel) and she and I survived that two horrible weeks with our men in the field and the world gripped by tragedy, the uncertainty that went with being a Military wife at that time in History, the wonders and joys of pregnancy ( her little one is 4 days older than my youngest..)
I sit here typing this, trying to decipher why the simularities in my life to those of 8 years ago have drug up so many overpowering emotions. Is it because the emotions of september 11,2001 were sooo overpowering, they brought me to my knees. or is it something else stirring in my heart, in my soul.
I remember the tears, the fear, the concern over loved ones in both NYC and the Pentagon, and jumping every time the phone rang, waiting for news, as strongly as if it were yesterday.
It is amazing to me how this one tragic event is so engraved into my memory, into my heart. the knowledge that here we are 8 years later and I once again find myself at home, alone with the kids while My husband is off in the feild, training and doing His part to serve. As another round of friends prepares to deploy, I pray for thier safety, and for their wives and children.
May we never forget that for those of us who are Military families, when tragedy strikes, the emotions that follow cut so deep that the feelings of those moments become a thread woven through every thought, every day of the fabric of our lives. someone said to me , just dont think about it, see it as just another day! I could not believe my ears. to me september 11 will NEVER be “Just another day”.
It saddens me that people forget so easily. to some Veterans Day, Memorial day, December 7th, and September 11th are all ” Just another day” but to me…..these are very imprtant dates…things my children know well, and we take the time to stop and pray and say thank you to those who stand on the front lines.
Pray for the men and women serving, and please dont remember to pray for thier wives, husbands, children, and parents. you see, yes the service members are the ones doing the footwork, the fighting, but those at home, behind the scenes, praying and supporting the loved ones far from home, but never far from thoughts and hearts, who are also serving. God bless all the Military families out there, and keep our loved ones safe until they come home to us. and remember regardless of wether it is a one year deployment, or a shorter period of time for training purposes, the emotions are still very strong, and very real, and regardless wether you are a 13 year Military spouse, or new to it all, it is still a daily challenge, it takes a very special person to love a Service member, to stand by and support from the background.
To my friends who are serving, Thank you each and everyone of you , and to your families, a Huge hug and a thank you to them as well. you are all daily in my thoughts and prayers.